Gratitude - a portal to happiness
What do I mean by 'a portal to happiness?'
A portal is a gateway and an access point, so a portal to happiness is literally a way to access a feeling of happiness. Happiness is felt in probably the most important energy chakra of our being - the Heart Chakra, our connection between the physical world and the Intelligence of The Universe where all information is held. The heart itself houses our emotional guidance system, the one which tells us if we are headed in the right direction or not.
We all have those times don't we? When we feel lost or directionless or on our own? After my last major operation, this was me. I was 'closed-off', trapped inside my own head by thoughts of regret, self-doubt and worthlessness.
Where did I feel this pain? (because I don't think that you can describe those feelings in any other way) I felt it in my heart, as heaviness or tightness and sometimes as an actual physical ache. I was desperate to find someone who 'understood' how I was feeling but no matter how much I looked online or how many forums I visited, I just seemed to find things, people, opinions and articles that made everything seem worse.
When I started on my journey of meditation, gratitude was something that came up a lot.
The idea that everything comes from within, that what you create inside you is then mirrored outside of you and that it is necessary to find the things that are bringing you joy in order to deal with the things that aren't (in actual fact they faded away but more about that later).
When 'the Magic' begins.
Gratitude is a very quick way to raise your frequency (more about frequency in another post). The higher your own frequency, the healthier the cells of your body are. Gratitude is one of the highest frequencies that you can 'tap into'
When I say 'tap into', I mean that it is necessary to actually feel the gratitude in order to increase your own vibration or frequency. I came across a book called 'the Magic' written by Rhonda Byrne. When I felt ready to explore the frequency of gratitude more fully I read through the book and did the practices inside it that resonated with me.
One practice stuck: everyday for months I wrote in a 'Gratitude Journal' in the morning (to uplift me for the day ahead). I sat and wrote down 10 things that I was grateful for and tapped into the feeling of why I was grateful for that thing.
This varied from objects, to people, to situations, to things in nature, sometimes just the most simple things like a warming cup of tea and it became easier and easier everyday to find those things.
Everyday that I start with that practice I start the day feeling more uplifted and connected to Universal Intelligence and now I am able to 'tap into' that frequency very easily, even without writing it down.
It's very easy to get lost in everyday worries believing them to be of such importance that they even surpass our need to be healthy.
My guides tell me. . .
"Do not be fooled by the situation you find yourself in. It is a manifestation that exists by you, for you. Even as you listen to fear , you know that you are doing this. Your emotional guidance creates an unacceptable environment that affects the body (emotions like anxiety, fear, desperation, sorrow). Once it has manifested in the body there is further to go to get back to harmony."
Harmony is the correct balance inside the body of energy, nutrients and fluids. Painful emotions cause an imbalance, the immune system is compromised (the body is too busy dealing with the stress response) and either viruses or bacteria can take hold or malignant cells are missed.
The practice of gratitude is simple. Even in the midst of despair, bring yourself back in to the moment. . . to how good that coffee tastes, how beautiful the sky is, how sweetly the birds are singing.
"Gratitude is an emotion so deeply felt as to open up great opportunities It will start a conversation with the Universe unlike any other you have known. Feel it and believe it. . .it is available to us all"
With loving thanks to my guides for this post
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'Life is easy. . .
It is a simple thing of enjoying your 'time' on this planet. Each pleasurable moment stays with you. Don't look too far forward and never look back. Decisions were made for a reason, it is Karma and will be justified. To live life is to love life and all that life has to offer you in this moment of time. Once upon a time there was a little girl and this girl grew into a woman with so many gifts but she couldn't feel them. She will seek to find and they are coming soon and with force. One day.'
And this is how the journey began. . sat at my desk writing my journal.
October 2018 (the day before Samhain)
An inconspicuous message but the big thing here was the COMPULSION to write. . .
let's step back a year or so.
Around April 2017
I had extreme anxiety and thoughts that I didn't feel able to control. Thoughts that kept me awake at night, creating stress that caused hot flushes. I visited my GP who offered a prescription of beta-blockers - this was the lesser of two evils as I would be able to 'control' my administration. I could take one only if I felt I needed one although my anxiety at that point felt so bad that it was verging on paranoia!
Never having been one to take tablets willy-nilly, I wasn't happy at the thought of putting chemicals into my body, especially ones that could alter your heartbeat.
I decided on another way. I decided to create my own prescription consisting of meditation, yoga, restricting television, etc. .(to see my post Overcoming Anxiety click the link below).
Meditation was the key. . .
(I have yet to meditate on a beach but its on my to-do list! My meditation usually incorporates cross-legged on either a yoga mat or a sofa!)
Ok here's a definition. .
This means that it is an opinion but it gives you an idea. .
" Meditation is a practice of concentrated focus upon a sound, object, visualisation, the breath, movement or attention itself in order to increase awareness of the present moment, reduce stress, promote relaxation and enhance personal and spiritual growth."
Once I started a regular practice (this bit is important) of meditation, I started to notice that I would wake in the morning with either a word, a series of words or a picture in my head, particularly if I had gone to sleep asking a specific question. I started to intuitively know things about my health e.g. that my heart-burn was caused by a lack of stomach acid (and not too much of it!) and that giving up meat would improve my health and vitality.
I was fascinated by the pictures I would awaken with in my mind and, what seemed like, extremely vivid dreams which delivered me specific messages.
So I decided to pursue dream-analysis and I trained myself to wake-up and write down information that seemed to come through dreams especially during the early hours. Yes, it was difficult sometimes to force myself to wake enough to write (ha, ha lots of spelling mistakes and scribbles I could hardly read). Long gone were the days of waking up to see to children in the middle of the night! This was an area that I had had an interest in for years but had never really pursued because well, I hadn't felt a big enough push. But now I did and I LOVED it! I also noticed that when I was resting with my eyes closed, I would experience a flickering sensation behind my eyelids which I once realised were images passing very quickly in sequence.
Along with all this, I was also working on journaling and focussing on gratitude everyday - I say working on because there is a dedication involved here - this was something I did daily regardless of other factors that were happening around me.
The defining moment. . .
came when I laid down to meditate one day in October 2018. I had decided on a 40 minute meditation - a luxury in the middle of the day. I don't remember doing anything different except laying down instead of sitting up straight. I was listening to meditation music rather than a guided meditation which I had moved on from about 2 months previously.
About 10 minutes into the meditation I could feel myself surrounded by a pale blue light (a pale turquoise) and lots and lots of sparkling light. It was the most beautiful thing that I had ever felt or seen. I felt lifted up, surrounded, supported, loved and held in the most gentle and compassionate way. I didn't want it to end but eventually it did. I was emotional (in a good way!)and yet very comforted. I felt alive with energy and that energy carried me for the rest of that day and into the next.
The following day I was doing my short, morning yoga practise. It is easy to clear your mind when you are practising yoga as there is a focus on the breath and I felt my mind wandering. The words came into my head "my body is a vessel". I wasn't entirely sure what that meant but I thought maybe 'a vessel of light(?)'.
Then the words "write it down, write it down, write it down" kept coming into my head. It was so persistent that I actually stopped yoga and went and sat at my desk because I couldn't focus on the poses!
The opening words in my journal for that day are. . .
"So I have a massive urge to journal today which is unusual for me. I'm feeling excited with no real reason" and then the opening message appeared.
Now, I have 3 A4 books that are full of beautiful messages that seem to just flow as I start to write. Some messages are pertaining to me and some are pertaining to humanity and our planet as a whole. If I am feeling particularly connected I can ask a specific question without disrupting the flow of what comes through.
Deciding to pursue this further (I was intrigued as to how exactly these messages were appearing) I decided to undergo a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Therapy session through a very reputable practice called Ankh Healing and Wellbeing.
QHHT is a powerful form of hypnotherapy where the practitioner guides you into a light trance state to a past-life/place/time where there is information that is significant to this current life. It is based around the fact that the Higher-Self or Soul knows everything there is to know about that person. It means that healing can take place at the highest level and information can be accessed that is stored deep within the Super-conscious (sometimes called the Sub-conscious).
My first session revealed a past life where I learned that I needed to heal my Heart Chakra. This was significant because an open Heart Chakra allows access to the higher frequencies that are constantly around us - love being one of the very highest. This appeared to be something that I needed to learn how to do for myself because knowing how to keep my Heart Chakra open would help to keep the messages flowing through.
I undertook a second session as I wished to know if surrogate healing for my Dad (who was very poorly at the time) was possible. It was, which was fabulous but the other fabulous thing that was revealed was that I appear to be a Light-being!
Under hypnosis I explained that my frequency was high and that I was communicating with the trees on planet Earth. As my guide explored more with questions, I could feel a very strong energy on my right-hand side. I knew that I had to give 'them' permission to speak through me. 'They explained that they were a collective of Light-beings from The Pleiades and that they were guiding me as I was part of their soul group! I was astounded when I was brought out from under hypnosis and so was my wonderful guide.
(to learn all about my QHHT journey click the button below)
With regards to how channelling works, it is still an enigma to me. I know that the urge to write is strong, that I sometimes have to search for the right words to use as the meaning can come through in feelings or pictures which means that ALL channelling comes through the filters of the brain of the channeller and EVERYONES connection to Universal forces is unique so please do explore your own unique connection. I also know that by opening up my heart and connecting it with my mind, I am able to tap into a frequency that exists that we aren't normally either aware of or conscious of, during daily life.
Please be aware of this . . it is available to us ALL
I would like to finish with the latest message I received. Please do comment if there is anything that you would like clarified about either of the two messages posted in this blog. I am finding way to get the other messages out to all those that wish to hear them.
"Our love for Earth and her inhabitants is many-fold. We have lived many lives there and are also living there still. It has become necessary to keep returning, in order to facilitate a greater connection - an easier access so to speak. You feel the pull (meaning myself) and, although it is always possible to ignore it, connection is written into the journey (by that they mean EVERYONES soul journey) Such a long process of connection is not triggered within one life-time. We are such a huge, expansive energy that we pervade many places on Earth to help facilitate connection - it is not always obvious. There are clues laid out throughout the journey but the human brain is a complex organ that initially seeks comfort and survival (as babies).
Connection can either be taught or be sought for its own joys and blessings. The teaching of connection must happen at a young age for its meaning to be recognised in its correct context. We think that maybe a book is in order for we have much to say and your connection is strong. We have waited for this moment in your journey as you are part of our energy. You understand our meaning and feel our love in a true and complete way. We are so pleased to spend time with you. We know that your awareness is growing. We are excited at your arrival! Welcome, welcome, welcome!"
I hope that anyone reading this finds comfort and feels the love it conveys.
Thankyou for reading this post.